hello there.
it’s 2012. a new year with new possibilities. can you believe it? i most certainly can. i entered the new year with my (still) stunningly amazing fiancée. 2012 is a year of travel, change and great happiness. i have a great deal on my plate for this year – i’m going to Paris in three months (also with my fiancée, and i can’t wait!), i’m going to a concert to finally see one of my favorite bands, i’m moving in with my (yes, i like writing it) fiancée, getting a job, and hopefully we’re going to Milan in the fall. doesn’t it sound great? i think so. the best thing about thinking of your future is knowing you have someone to share it with. i can’t even begin to describe how lucky and happy i feel! i used to look at my future and see fog; the uncertainty crept over me and almost swallowed me whole.. so many possibilities! these are the final months before i go out into ‘the real world’ and start college. or, i’m going to work for a year before i start, but the feeling is still the same. usually it’s the (as mentioned) uncertainty and that gnawing feeling in the pit of your stomach as you think about what you’re going to do with the rest of your life. now i know, and the feeling of having it figured out is beyond gratifying. i know how it’s going to be, and i can’t wait for it to be summer so i can start! i know the plot, the characters and some of the action, but there are a few blanks that still need to be filled — but that’s no problem. they are happy blanks. friendly blanks. i don’t worry about the blanks. because, good people, i got it figured out! and oh, how great it is.
knowing that i have my man there beside me in my future.. i can’t even describe it well enough. the blood cruises around in my body, making my heart yell and sing and dance! all these fabulous things. i feel so incredibly lucky to have this wonderful and downright great person in my life! if there is a God, higher power or what ever — i’m forever thankful! so, so thankful. i have found true happiness and love, and it’s guiding me and walking with me through life like that best friend. somehow i was chosen. there are so few people in life who get that — but i did. i actually did.
have a good night, whoever’s out there.
i’m signing off — happy and full of love.
